While double titles do make me happy, things have been not so great in my life these days.
My beloved husband is working at least 40 hours a week at a pretty stressful job. He is also taking nine credits online towards his Mangerial Accounting degree, which amounts to at least 20 hours of homework a week. Not to mention the fact that we teach sunday school together, and he teaches a mens class on Wednesday nights, so there are lessons to be made. He takes care of our finances and fixes anything that is broken.
So how, you ask, can I be unhappy when I have a wonderful husband who makes sacrifices for us, takes great care of me, and goes to school so that one day when we have children I can stay home with them?
Because I miss him.
Just another six weeks and I will have him back for a couple of months. He will not be taking nine credits again. It's just too much. It will then take him a little longer to finish school, but not seeing each other is not worth it.
I struggle with my attitude. While I am immensely grateful for all the hard work he does, I am apt to become resentful, irritable, rude to him because I just want to be with him but can't. It doesn't make sense as I read my words. How can I resent him when he does all this for me? My attitude makes it even worse because during the precious moments that we do have together, I'm so out of sorts that it's difficult to even enjoy them. God, deliver me from this mind of death!
So, maybe it's the semester from hell. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's my poor attitude. Whatever the cause, I am blue.
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